"It is He who reveals the profound and hidden things; He knows what is in the darkness, and the light dwells with Him." -Daniel 2:22
"Do not fear, for I am with you..." -Isaiah 43:5
"...we are not presenting our supplications before You on account of any merits of our own, but on account of Your great compassion." -Daniel 9:18

Tuesday, May 26, 2009

This Too Shall Pass

These past few years we have seen the dark clouds continually gather around us. Al's cancer diagnosis, the chemo treatments, the stem cell transplants, the challenges of making it through each day, the loss of his job, the confusion that comes with trying to make sense of such a rapid shift in your entire being, the loss of the baby this past week, the upheaval of packing up everything except the necessities, only to find you aren't going to be moving anytime soon, the frustration in trying to sell a property during these difficult times, the fruitlessness of job hunting in a recession, the mental struggles of being hit with wave after wave of bad, unpleasant or downright heartbreaking things.
We don't know where to go from here, what to do that we haven't already done, there is nothing left to do except wait. When you lose so much in such a short space of time, you can be tempted to just give up. To forget about what you didn't lose. So, you have to say, "What are we left with?". We are left with a home, for now. We are left with our family that have been very supportive. We still have our great friends who have lifted us up in many ways. We still have a deep and abiding faith in our Heavenly Father. It is enough.
I won't lie. The struggle definitely takes it's toll. To do battle every day with anger, resentment, anguish, heartbreak, fear, letdowns, frustration, fatigue, sickness, loneliness, isolation, and so many other emotions - it will get to anyone! I feel myself becoming weary of the battle. But in my weariness, God always sends me words of encouragment. Either through an email, a phone call, a card or my daily devotional. Here are a few excerpts from the past week and you will see what I mean:
From "Streams in the Desert"
May 16 - Do not be afraid, Daniel. since the first day that you set your mind to gain understanding and to humble yourself before your God, your words were heard, and I have come in response to them. But the prince of the Persian kingdom resisted me 21 days. ~Daniel 10:12-13
Daniel prayed for 21 days, God heard, but Satan stood in the way. Until Satan was defeated, God's blessings were hindered.
May 18 - We were under great pressure...so that we despaired even of life...But this happened that we might not rely on ourselves but on God, who raises the dead. 2 Corinthians 1:8-9
The pressure of difficult times makes us value life. It makes us more compassionate and understanding of others.
May 22 - Commit your way to the Lord; trust in Him and He will do this. Psalm 37:5
Turn over your burdens to Him and He will do great works on your behalf.
May 23 - They were at their wits' end. Then they cried out to the Lord in their trouble and He brought them out of their distress. Psalm 107:27-28
Do not be discouraged - it may be the last key on the ring that opens the door.
May 24 - Sarah became pregnant and bore a son to Abraham in his old age, at the very time God had promised him. Genesis 21:2
We must be prepared to wait on God's timing. It is precise, for He does things at the very time He has set. The One you wait for will not disappoint you. He will never be even five minutes behind the appointed time.
May 26 - Spring up, O well! Sing about it. Numbers 21:17
The children of Israel needed water. As instructed by God, they gathered together to dig a well. As they dug in the sand, they sang praises for what was to come. They tapped the stream that ran deep below the surface, unseen for a long time. Nothing pleases the Lord as much as praise. Praise in advance of things to come. He will supply our needs, even in the desert.

You know how it is when God is speaking to you...you just don't want to stop reading. I sneaked a peek at tomorrows, too.
May 27 - Bring them here to me. Matthew 14:18
Do you find yourself surrounded with needs, and nearly overwhelmed with difficulties, trials, and emergencies? Each of these is God's way of providing vessels for the Holy Spirit to fill. Remain still before Him and stop your own restless working until He begins to work. Do nothing that He himself has not commanded you to do. Allow God time to work and He surely will. Then the very trials that threatened to overcome you with discouragement and disaster will become God's opportunity to reveal His grace and glory in your life, in ways you have never known before. My God will meet all your needs accoring to His glorious riches in Christ Jesus. Philippians 4:19

Hallelujah! Right on target.

So let me take this opportunity to praise Him.
Our Heavenly Father, Lord and Master over all, we give thanks and praise to you this day. Thanks for all the blessings you have allowed us to partake of all these years.
Great family, good friends, fellowship, a home, missions, vacations, toys, good work, children, freedom, good health, The Word, learning, trials, grandchildren and so, so much more.
We have not deserved not one minute of all the good things that You have made possible for us to enjoy.
We praise you for who You are. Maker of all things. Our Father, our Counselor, our Redeemer, our Healer, our Savior to come.
Now we thank You for what You are going to do in our lives, if we would but, BE STILL. That You will grow us closer to You through the deep sorrows we are passing through. We trust You, we abide in You, we love You. Amen.

Al's Update: He's doing pretty well. He will not be able to mow yards with his friend Steve for purposes of being disabled. He was not going to be able to hold up physically. Our yard is all he can handle. He is working on paperwork for SS Disability and a retirement from TXU.
He has some serious issues with his teeth. He has been in a lot of pain. Needs several root canals. Blessings on Dr. George for helping out with that.
He has not been feeling really good, but that is probably because he tries to do too much.
I have told him it is okay to throw away the rulebook when it comes to planning his day. He can sleep as late as he needs to. There is no set time when he has to do anything. This will take some getting used to.
It will be a couple of weeks before we go back to the oncologist and find out the results of those tests to see what is going on with the cancer levels.

1 comment:

Perspective RAD said...

yup. I call this Soul "stripping". ugh.